RE: [ET2] Shadow Selves - False happenings!

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> From: robertad762000 [mailto:robertadam_at_oYD4dgaPNLsae2LUB30Lsy19w8hlykLIITQttFxlB61usvMAgXe_d7-3975RgvSj_C2k8vnTugkRrbhWjK_yLbYYnVZEc7fzbU4.yahoo.invalid]
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> Subject: [ET2] False happenings!
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>
> Just typed a long post and promptly lost it somehow. Bugger!!
>
> Jist of post was about how the first few times I did
> snow globe or
> thought flow I got something. A little relief and a sense of
> something slithering down my spine.
>
> But now I don't feel that. What I get now is nothing
> but a part of
> me co-opting the exercise.
>
> Example: A thought comes. Part of me says yes, we can
> move that and
> promptly re-creates the thought and takes it over. But
> this second
> thought lacks the energy of the first. It's just a
> sort of copy and
> away for some part of me to control the process.
>
> Anyone else seen this happening?
>
> I think this problem is not just related to s/g and t/f
> but transfers
> into much of my life. A sort of mock self, who for a
> long time I
> thought was me, pretends to run the show and so manages to keep
> control and nullify the effects of things which could
> be dangerous to
> its self.
>
> (Paranoid)...hang on, who's typing this?
>
> bye for now, Robert.

Very, very interesting, Robert!

God you don't want to know what's going on in my head here! LOL!
Cascade time!

Now, I've noticed for a long time that just about everyone has
aspects of self, not just the multiple personality crowd.

These things are self constructs and I really think that they are
like thoughtfields - dense and existing, people can see them and
interact with them, and the more attention they are given, the
more concrete they become, and the more bothersome (in my opinion)
as the owner of these shadow selves gets more and more confused as
to who they really are. If they get lost in the shadow self
altogether - god help them!

Personally, I have a particular shadow self of the lovely little
girl my dad decided I was and which had absolutely nothing to do
with me - who I was, what I looked like even! He made this
construct of "his daughter" and then interacted with it rather
than with me, and if I wanted to interact back or get any
attention, I would have to shift into this shadow. The more I
became it, the more attention. Nasty.

Perhaps I'm stuck on this because it happens to be on the agenda,
but I can't help thinking again about the heart healing.

The shadow selves cannot have a true heart nor of course, do they
have true connections with the physicality; it might be possible
to center on and re-establish a sense of the true self through the
heart healing exercise.

And indeed, feed it up now with focussed attention and make it
stronger.

What does that sound like, Robert?

Might that work?

SF

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Received on Wed May 28 2003 - 23:56:25 BST