False happenings!

Just typed a long post and promptly lost it somehow. Bugger!!

Jist of post was about how the first few times I did snow globe or
thought flow I got something. A little relief and a sense of
something slithering down my spine.

But now I don't feel that. What I get now is nothing but a part of
me co-opting the exercise.

Example: A thought comes. Part of me says yes, we can move that and
promptly re-creates the thought and takes it over. But this second
thought lacks the energy of the first. It's just a sort of copy and
away for some part of me to control the process.

Anyone else seen this happening?

I think this problem is not just related to s/g and t/f but transfers
into much of my life. A sort of mock self, who for a long time I
thought was me, pretends to run the show and so manages to keep
control and nullify the effects of things which could be dangerous to
its self.

(Paranoid)...hang on, who's typing this?

bye for now, Robert.

           
Received on Wed May 28 2003 - 14:41:29 BST