Shyam

Dear fellow E.T. explorers..

On friday i went to watch a dance performance done to a song i wrote and
recorded a few years ago.
I have never actually felt that this song was mine or had been able to get in
touch with the true feeling of it being something that was part of me in any
way.

so there i was watching this amazing dance to my song "Shyam". and i felt a
huge block.. a damn shield approximately the size of a tennis court holding
back from me the sense that i owned this lovely song, and with it any joy or
realisation that i can and do write and sing well.

so.. i emotranced it all.. the sheild went away pretty fast once i had
located it and then.. IIINNNN she came.. like warm water flowing.. and i felt
the ice cracking and melting.
and then.. the song just filled me up and nourished me.. the way it nourishes
those who come to me (often) and say it really touches them. i was so
relieved.

And the mere fact that i am writing about it here to you all is testament to
the FACT that emo trance works. because i had never allowed my work (my gift)
to touch me, i was just compelled to do it almost against my will.

since friday, i find myself unable to stem my creativity.

yay!

love to you all..

gaura
           
Received on Tue Oct 22 2002 - 04:21:46 BST