An Interesting Discovery

Hi there!

Last week I had something of a breakthrough in my understanding of how
to flow energy through me. It may seem obvious to most of you and maybe
I was just slow on the uptake, but I thought I would post my experience
here anyway - at least share my newbie enthusiasm! :-)

I have to preface the account by saying that I had gotten a full-body
massage about a month ago. For most people this kind of massage would
be heaven, but I'm really tortured by them because of how much tension I
have held in my body (has been a lifelong state of being for me). It
had been years since I had any kind of extensive massage, but I still
looked forward to it since I had months of ET behind me.

The massage was less tortuous, but I at least came away from the
experience knowing exactly where I still needed to work on myself. I
suppose I had the unspoken question of how to act on this knowledge,
except I did bring out the second ET volume and start looking at the
body connection again.

What happend last week began during a moment where I was connecting with
a spiritual being. The energy flow from him is always strong and grows
stronger the more work I open myself with energy work. However, as was
usually the case, the energy entered nicely through my head and got
stuck in my upper back.

Now at this point I would normally say those blessed "soften and flow"
words and it would help and the flow could proceed with more ease. But
I would still be stiff and uncomfortable. Instead, I had a kind of
rapid series of revelations, something like this....there can't possibly
be a blockage there....I've 'softened and flowed' this area to
death....healing the energy body hasn't made any longstanding changes
either...energy doesn't always get stuck, only the larger
amplitudes...the massage, the tension in my neck and back......my body
reflects an energetic reality......I don't have a blockage - I have
CONSTRICTION! The amount of tension I hold there must also be true for
that part of my energy body.

So, after that 5 or 10 seconds, I looked at my upper back and neck with
a new perspective and addressed my energy pathways with the
words.....Stretch...Expand....Relax...Let through the flow. Whoosh!
That did the trick! I felt the energy shift in my back and the flow
just fell right down. And that was a very nice experience!

The best part about it was that I didn't just have an easing up of the
tension. Usually 'softening and flowing' would enable the flow to
proceed but Iwould still be very stiff and uncomfortable, as if... and I
can see this now...the pathway was not open enough and the flow filled
the channel to its maximum capacity which made me stiff as a board.

After expanding the pathways instead, I had complete relaxation and
flowing the energy was completely enjoyable. I had not realized how
much of a threshold of pain I was enduring whenever I do energy work,
which is often.

With that realization, I have become more sensitive and aware of how
much tension I hold. I seem to clench my upper back and neck regularly.
As I have been catching myself at this, I expand and let through
whatever flow I am obviously holding back. It's so relieving! Once I
even noticed how much my jaw was clenched, so I applied the same
expanding intention there. I was surprised at the flow that was
released from that erea.

Already I have seen that I am not clenching up my upper back as much as
I used to. I can simply put my attention there and I feel an automatic
expanding. Isn't it amazing what a little attention can do? (And
I'm thinking of this on a metaphorical level now!) It seems it 's
just another kind of training - retraining myself to live differently
than I did growing up and how closed up within myself I was. That
closing up, that withdrawal, became a literal closing up of my energy
sytem.

So, now I have a good idea of giving my whole body a round of this kind
of expansion treatment. That massage left a painful memory of where the
constricted ereas are in every part of my body. This weekend I intend
to go through and begin focusing on those ereas and work on them in this
fashion. I would like to do this for a couple of months and then brave
another massage - see how much I have improved and where other ereas may
need work.

Like I said, this probably seems obvious to all of you, but it was a
VERY different movement for me that made all the difference. Now I feel
like I'm making progress!

Have a great weekend!

Donna

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Received on Mon Oct 13 2008 - 00:12:15 BST