Transforming Animal Bereavement

slkysmooth465 wrote:
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> Hi guys. I am quite new to emotrance, just finished Living Energies
> a week ago but I had a great experience and I wanted to share it
> with SOMEONE!! I hope I can relay how extraordinary the outcome was
> but if I don't get that across, please take my word for it.
> To start with I want to give you a little background about me and
> how I respond to "tragedy". About 5 years ago I had a little dog
> that died in a house fire. I was DESTROYED, both by the loss of the
> dog and all that was lost in the fire. I would cry myself to sleep
> at night missing my little friend. I would cry during the day when I
> thought of him. I was filled with all the thoughts that grieving
> people have, like how could this have happened, how could he leave
> me? I knew that my reaction was completely over the top but I
> couldn't control it. This went on for almost two years. My
> relationships suffered, my energy was shot, my business
> suffered.Part of it had to be because there were other huge losses
> involved with the fire but anyway, finally I started to even out. In
> the back of my mind I had this terror of my dad or anyone else dying
> because I was afraid I just was going to come completely unglued.
>
> A few years ago I became the mum of a little rescue dog who while
> she had a lot of physical issues was the damn cutest sweetest most
> lovable little creature I had ever had in my life. Two weeks ago she
> started going down hill and I was frantic getting her to doctors and
> hospitals and doing whatever I could for her. I was practically
> hysterical and totally preoccupied with what I could do to "save"
> her. Finally, she died and I thought "how am I going to get through
> this?" I did not want to "suffer" the way I did in the past and now
> because of emotrance I believed that suffering might be an option so
> I decided to do et on my emotions. For two and a half days I et'd
> every feeling that came up and man, there were a lot of them. I'd go
> to bed at night feeling pretty good and get up in the morning
> thinking, no there's more so I would et whatever came up. IT got
> easier and easier and finally I realized, wow! I'm OK!! I could look
> at her little bed and her little toys and be completely OK. I could
> talk to people about her and laugh at how cute she was.I could go
> through the whole scenario of her dying and feel completely calm. I
> went to the place where we used to go for a walk and I got a picture
> in my mind of her running as fast as her little legs would carry
> her, something she could never do in "real" life, and I got that
> death, in her opinion, was not a bad thing at all!
> My friends were really worried about me when Hope took sick. They
> knew how attached I was to her and were afraid to see what I would
> go through when she died. After she died they were waiting for me to
> fall apart. They sent me cards sharing "my pain." It was so weird to
> look at those cards and think. Well, thanks, but I'm not having any
> pain. Wow! This was so hugely liberating for me. And I believe this
> is how it supposed to be. Less grieving and more fond, happy
> memories that make you feel good instead of miserable. I also feel
> since I went through this that I am in general happier and calmer. I
> feel like I must've cleared out mountains of gook from my energy
> body and it has made me feel better in general.
> I totally love, ET. I'm excited about life for the first time ever
> because I don't feel like a victim any more. Thanks Sylvia for
> sharing this incredible tool with us!
>
> Kate
>

Dear Kate,

congratulations in every way and THANK YOU too for sharing this with us!

It was amazing to read this because you're so right, and in so many ways.

Last year my Tara got very ill, she was old and it was time for her to go. I also did ET all the time and on everything, especially to make sure that her last night on Earth was peaceful and I was being supportive instead of a hysterical wreck (that would have been UNCONSCIONABLE!). Sometime in the middle of this last night I had these huge energy waves sweep up and I managed to trance them through - and then I got it.

I got it that her death was going to be the most EXQUISITE of all healings.

She was going to be well soon. Really, really well. Absolutely healed in all ways, and of every thing. And it was all very right, and all as it was supposed to be. A perfect end to a wonderfully rich life.

The experience of that was extraordinary, to get that.

The next day, a young vet came to give her the absolute healing, as it were; in her own bed, with me being by her side, in the sittingroom, calm and gentle.

He was a bit scared and nervous of the possible emotions. When she left, I felt it, et'ed the whole thing and it was like there was a radiance there. I looked up and saw him watching me and when I thanked him sincerely for his services he was wide eyed and amazed, went away very thoughtfully.

Like yourself, I also think of her often and happily so. I have no bereavement pain; the only thing is a lasting sense of astonishment and awe at the whole thing or that something like that could be experienced like it was by *me*. I too had terrible reactions to the death of my previous companions, intense suffering, and for so long.

I am so glad you too had a *new* experience this time; I'm sure our companions are glad too for they would never want to see us suffer as we used to with their passing.

Wonderful. A real blessing.

Thank you for sharing,

and lots of love to you,

Silvia

Silvia Hartmann
http://SilviaHartmann.com

           
Received on Mon Sep 25 2006 - 08:13:55 BST