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Hi guys. I am quite new to emotrance, just finished Living Energies
a week ago but I had a great experience and I wanted to share it
with SOMEONE!! I hope I can relay how extraordinary the outcome was
but if I don't get that across, please take my word for it.
To start with I want to give you a little background about me and
how I respond to "tragedy". About 5 years ago I had a little dog
that died in a house fire. I was DESTROYED, both by the loss of the
dog and all that was lost in the fire. I would cry myself to sleep
at night missing my little friend. I would cry during the day when I
thought of him. I was filled with all the thoughts that grieving
people have, like how could this have happened, how could he leave
me? I knew that my reaction was completely over the top but I
couldn't control it. This went on for almost two years. My
relationships suffered, my energy was shot, my business
suffered.Part of it had to be because there were other huge losses
involved with the fire but anyway, finally I started to even out. In
the back of my mind I had this terror of my dad or anyone else dying
because I was afraid I just was going to come completely unglued.

A few years ago I became the mum of a little rescue dog who while
she had a lot of physical issues was the damn cutest sweetest most
lovable little creature I had ever had in my life. Two weeks ago she
started going down hill and I was frantic getting her to doctors and
hospitals and doing whatever I could for her. I was practically
hysterical and totally preoccupied with what I could do to "save"
her. Finally, she died and I thought "how am I going to get through
this?" I did not want to "suffer" the way I did in the past and now
because of emotrance I believed that suffering might be an option so
I decided to do et on my emotions. For two and a half days I et'd
every feeling that came up and man, there were a lot of them. I'd go
to bed at night feeling pretty good and get up in the morning
thinking, no there's more so I would et whatever came up. IT got
easier and easier and finally I realized, wow! I'm OK!! I could look
at her little bed and her little toys and be completely OK. I could
talk to people about her and laugh at how cute she was.I could go
through the whole scenario of her dying and feel completely calm. I
went to the place where we used to go for a walk and I got a picture
in my mind of her running as fast as her little legs would carry
her, something she could never do in "real" life, and I got that
death, in her opinion, was not a bad thing at all!
My friends were really worried about me when Hope took sick. They
knew how attached I was to her and were afraid to see what I would
go through when she died. After she died they were waiting for me to
fall apart. They sent me cards sharing "my pain." It was so weird to
look at those cards and think. Well, thanks, but I'm not having any
pain. Wow! This was so hugely liberating for me. And I believe this
is how it supposed to be. Less grieving and more fond, happy
memories that make you feel good instead of miserable. I also feel
since I went through this that I am in general happier and calmer. I
feel like I must've cleared out mountains of gook from my energy
body and it has made me feel better in general.
I totally love, ET. I'm excited about life for the first time ever
because I don't feel like a victim any more. Thanks Sylvia for
sharing this incredible tool with us!

Kate

           
Received on Mon Sep 25 2006 - 07:48:26 BST