[ET2] Re: Shields or just too good to be true?

Silvia,

What you wrote down here is very true I think. Maybe there is
something still in my enery matrix but it will come to surface when
it is time to deal with it.

Isn't it weird that a rape can change you so much. I know the whole
thing of me being overweight has to do with me being raped as my
first sexual experience. I this thing was bad at the time, but it
never seemed to weight as much as the feeling that I simply wasn't
acceptable.

I just thought I had dealt with it. It just never sprung to my mind
as something that I still had to solve. Till the moment I realised
that my fat was a protection device for letting people get to close
to me.

I don't know nothing about Louise Hay, but could have the powerloss
you feel have anything to do with you feeling powerless at the time
the rape happened?

I don't know, just my two cents worth. I really hope your pain will
subside soon. I will sent you some healing energy. In fact I just
did. It was a great ball of sunlike yellow energy. I hope it will do
something good for you.

Bright yellow sunshine waves,
Margreet

> I think it is possible that BOTH are right and AT THE SAME TIME,
both
> being:
>
> 1. There IS STILL old stuff in the energy matrix that STILL needs
> attention;
>
> AND
>
> 2. It isn't important because it is of the past, and we're
actually very
> alright indeed.
>
>
> That doesn't seem to make any sense at first but bear with me.
>
> I am beginning to come to the conclusion that by TRYING TO FIX THE
PAST
> something happens to our general time orientation - a
simplification
> would be to say that we then ORIENTATE TOWARDS the past and also
thus,
> re-live the past.
>
> But that doesn't actually fix what needs fixing because this is
going to
> be taking place in the future and NOT in the past.
>
> It's like that saying "A watched pot never boils".
>
> Something happens, like a slowing down, like Archimedes' turtle
that
> never gets there because it halves, and halves again.
>
> I've got some "big issues" in my past and I've tried to resolve
those
> with all sorts of things over the years, but it never worked or did
> anything.
>
> So from 2003 onwards, I played with different time orientations and
> formulated the theory that healing takes place in the relative
future
> and nowhere else at all.
>
> As I always do, I implement my theories upon my own life and
conduct,
> best as I can and it certainly put the skates under my incarnation
in a
> big way. Now, there was and is a future and it's coming FAST, much
> faster than I ever knew.
>
> I'm getting much better at a number of time related phenomena,
such as
> time distortion, both ways; precognition is improving; there's been
> significant reduction in all manner of stressors and the reality
> creation works a whole lot better.
>
> "Hey!" Silvia thinks, "it's really true! This is working! Whoohoo!
The
> past is immaterial!"
>
> And then, out of the blue last week, bam! I have this complete
state
> flashback to an old rape scenario, completely there and full on,
with
> kinaesthetics so strong, I could really feel those hands holding me
> down, not being able to breathe, the whole lot.
>
> Now look.
>
> I've been in personal development for - EVER, decades.
>
> I've been to all sorts of trainings and workshops, done so many
> different techniques, drills and exercises it is unbelievable
really,
> and that was never, ever there AT ALL.
>
> And here we are, the sun is shining, the birds are singing, and
there it
> is.
>
> I got hold of it with EmoTrance and was astonished how easily it
> dissolved and flowed away, leaving me very clear but utterly
astonished.
>
> Why NOW?
>
> Why and HOW and WHERE did this come from - when I'd finally STOPPED
> DIGGING FOR IT?
>
> A watched pot never boils.
>
> Well I stopped watching the pot and then it boiled. Boiled over, in
> fact. At which point I took it off the cooker and turned the gas
off.
>
> Ah and what did I do then?
>
> I fell right back into this whole thing of "Gotcha! AHA! NOW I can
> finally get my therapy going for this!" - and on the way to doing
just
> that, something weird happened in my lower back and now I'm sitting
> here, crippled with mysterious attack of sciatica which I haven't
had
> since I was 25 or so.
>
> Duh!
>
> If I could get up from this chair without major agony, I'd get out
my
> old Louise Hay "Heal Your Life!" and look up what she has to say
about
> sciatica.
>
> Anybody got a copy?
>
> LOL ...
>
> But I am well pleased that I've always said that I don't know all
there
> is to know yet and I probably never will until after I'm dead,
well, you
> can hope, can't ya :-)
>
>
> Immobilised but otherwise amused waves,
>
> SFX
>
>
> PS: Before anyone asks.
>
> I've done ET for it, of course. It is pleasant and warm and takes
the
> pain away but does nothing for that complete "powerloss" in the
lower
> back - a really weird thing that is, trying to do anything without
the
> lower back, and very difficult. Give yours a loving greeting, it's
> amazing what it does for you all the time!
>
> I've also done EFT for it and the results were very similar.
>
> Interim choice of treatment: Sit still, let it sort itself out and
focus
> on the future by engaging in activities for that purpose.
>
> And keep chirpy :-)
>
>
>
>
> Silvia Hartmann
> http://StarFields.org

           
Received on Sun May 08 2005 - 18:11:02 BST