Actualisation Priority (was Intro & Prosperity)

Hi Alex(2)

Just wrote the mail below and now I know why I didn't answer this
last night. Its a big deal you brought up there and I found I
couldn't skate around it any longer.

The Alex(2) designation is because of Alex(1), as in Alex
MacKenzie who was here first :-) - I apologise for this and if you
would both want a different handle or settle this elsehow, I'd be
delighted.

cheers,

Silvia

PS - My oldest son is called Alex (0) - hahaha ... great name ...

> > The things I want right now cannot be purchased. I
> earn enough to
> > be able to just about coast along, pay the bills and
> not to worry
> > about it and that is seriously fine with me at this time.
> >
> > Later on, as and when, I am sure I can come up with
> something to
> > earn more. Heck, I can buy a mailing list right now,
> write a Doc
> > Speedkill ad and raise a few tens of thousands if I
> should feel
> > the need. As could anyone else, for that matter.
> >
> > As I said before. Do the groundwork and the pennies
> will take care
> > of themselves, in their own sweet time. I'm sure
> we've all read
> > enough marketing and abundance courses by now that if
> we wanted
> > to, we could write our own - LOL. That we don't is a huge sign
> > that we should be doing something else instead.
>
> I'm not sure about this. If I don't market enough,
> because I'm not
> sure enough to do it and don't know if it's worth the
> investment,
> then it is a huge sign I should be doing something
> else? It's like,
> if somebody is afraid to speak in front of a group and
> wants to be
> able to do it, I teach them EFT and then have them
> speak in front of
> the group feeling fine, with all the repercussions it
> has on their
> lives afterwards. Do you mean they should do something
> else because
> they don't do it before the training even if they know
> EFT? They
> should not do it because they didn't? This part was
> confusing to me
> and conflicting with my experience...

Ok, listen up.

All and every "hope and dream" any of us had up until now are
*construct* hopes and dreams.

Constructs do NOT have a heart and they do NOT have a soul and
that is the total reality for consciousness when it is INSIDE THE
CONSTRUCT.

Now, that sucks big time. Loneliness, lovelessness and no self
worth. Sense of total confusion all the time, no idea what you're
doing here or why you were even born. Nothing makes much sense and
it gets simply worse, the more questions you ask.

So what's a construct to do?????

It has to try and do certain things which are SAID to be the cure
for the construct's diseases. Such as finding THE ONE soul mate
(ha! rather than YOUR OWN SOUL!) and then you can love and you
know you are loved and you'll be happy and the pain will stop.

Or, being rich and powerful as a panacea for the loss of self
worth, the feeling of being completely ineffective and powerless,
being afraid of pain and death and all sorts.

Or, living some kind of Waltons existence with a thousand great
grand children all loving each other and living off the land and
THAT's what will answer all the problems.

Striving for these things can occupy your entire lifetime and keep
you busy enough, chasing your tail enough, so that it all just
about seems to make a modicum of sense.

Now, I have watched folk doing this and it is all an illusion. It
seems real to the constructs, and it is very hard on them, on us,
because the very resources that are needed to make "life on Earth"
actually work are not within the construct, but outside of it.

So, people who want to overcome their fear of public speaking, why
are they doing this? Ask them. So they earn more money, get a
better house, find a prettier woman with which to make lots of
Walton children and live happily ever after. Or, because if lots
of people buy their products and clap like mad they will finally
know they are worth something and the pain will stop. Or - etc.

For at least ten years I have been totally convinced that there is
NO such thing as unconscious resistance, or self sabotage.

That the totality is ALWAYS totally loving and really does have
our best interest at heart.

That the constructs we've made and which include ALL our hopes and
dreams are NOT functioning because THEY ARE BASICALLY WORTHLESS
AND NOT WORTH HAVING and that persuing them is a waste of this
incarnation, which is once and once only and will NEVER be again.

I wagered the next ten years of my life on exploring that
presupposition and instead of trying to force the totality into
doing the "right" thing (construct-wise) to BACK UP, LISTEN, TRY
AND LEARN, TRY AND UNDERSTAND.

And it turns out, that we (constructs) are wrong, and the totality
(the so called self sabotage systems) are right.

A house is NOTHING. It is NOT worth having. Ask Citizen Kane. It
is NOT worth spending even five minutes to chase after that when
there are the STARFIELDS waiting for each and every one of us.

Yes, I'm now on the pulpit and preaching flat out. I don't often
do it because it freaks people out, or should I say, it freaks
constructs out because it threatens the entire thing they've built
to help themselves make it through somehow.

"Personal Development" is NOT something you do AFTER you have a
house. It is not something you do AFTER you have found your
perfect lover, had your teeth fixed, got the new car, the new job,
the lottery win - it is HERE and NOW and simply, THE most
important thing any of us could ever, ever do.

It is the first and only thing that will ever give any of us
leverage to play with this reality as we should and could.

And I'm not just saying this to - was it Alex(2) who got this
started? or even everyone else on this group.

I'm saying this so very loudly so that *I* also hear this, and
finally get it, loud and clear.

Just *one* person gets their act together and their totality
online, and their entire environment will be transformed for
everyone concerned as they become a role model, a *fountainhead*
if you will, a service beyond service which a thousand years of
washing leper's feet or your childrens underwear could never,
never, never hope to even come close to.

They can just stand by the side of the road and give hope to
everyone who passes, without any effort, without any giant
speaking engagements or going round being the world teacher.

They have made THE MOST ENORMOUS contribution to humanity they
ever could - by becoming their true selves.

Now, I fully appreciate that we are all very much still in
construct city and only the smallest parts of true self are online
thus far. But and on the bright side, at least we are reaching and
have made, in our own ways, the best commitment we can about this
whole "actualisation" deal.

But seriously, all and everyone who is listening, time has come to
start actively looking out for incidences where, say a Heart
Healing session comes SECOND to answering the telephone, or
cleaning the kitchen, or whatever. To look out for this and to
simply shake our heads and say, "Blimey. (or, of course, the
requisite regional words to that effect :-) What WAS I
thinking?!" - laugh and get perspective on this whole deal.

YOUR and MY human actualisation IS the most important thing in the
world, for YOU and for ME - AND for everyone at that.

<takes a very deep breath>

Well I didn't know I was going to say all of that this morning,
but I guess *I* had to hear it and then see it, in black and white
on the screen.

I'll probably have to hear and see it a good few more times before
it really sinks in.

And, if anyone reading this has any argument with it, any
objections, come on let's hear them so we can deal with them, get
them out of the way and get this human show on the road.

SF

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Received on Thu Jun 05 2003 - 06:42:54 BST