RE: [ET2] Easy?

Hello Burton,
 
 
When you said:
 
" .you've got a babblebox in your head - chattering away 24/7."
 
I laughed out loud. For sure, I have. It's like a monkey on my shoulder.
All I want from life - well, I'm not in actual need of anything in the
food, shelter, companionship line - is to be able to shut down my
thoughts, on demand, for varying periods of time; but I'm beginning to
suspect one reason I can't do this is because I'm petrified they might
never start up again.
 
This disassociation/association thing isn't entirely news to me. I
actively seek out circumstances that force me to associate. But I'd like
to associate while washing up, too. The trouble is, most of life is made
up of activities, like washing up, that are just perfect for
disassociating from because they can be done automatically while
thinking of something completely different.
 
I do feel things, though. Last night, for example, I spent some torrid,
sleepless hours worrying (again) about my daughter. She's in India, and
I was expecting a phone call, a text message or an email and hadn't got
it. I had a nightmare about her being captured by bandits, after which
lay awake with the familiar lead stomach.
 
All morning, I felt progressively worse. Then, at midday, she phoned. As
we spoke, I felt this weight slide away from me. I don't think I'd
properly registered its presence, but the way it went was like a load of
snow on the roof of a house slipping off as it thawed.
 
Actually, I say I 'do' feel things; but the first time I really felt
that weight was when it left me.
 
Doesn't everyone think way too much? I mean, who can wash the dishes,
and not be thinking about something else?
 
 
Nicholas
 
 
 

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Received on Tue Feb 11 2003 - 12:29:03 GMT