RE: [ET2] Black holes cont'd

>
> And having said that, what is there that says you must
> choose between head and heart? That you can only go
> with one or the other? Is there something that says you
> can’t do both?
>
> Respectfully,
>
> RD
>

Hi RD

and thank you for your <kind? supportive? friendly?> message.

What I have not yet managed to work out is - ah, well I think you
could call it survival.

Now we're not scratching around in the mud for seed pods in
survival terms but have become sublimated into scratching around
for money instead, but a metaphor's a metaphor so it doesn't
actually matter much in the way it works in the energy system.

This business with sorting out your energy system and NOT spending
all day and night with creative endeavours because it will drive
you insane (as it did all those many other geniusses before!) is
perplexing, paradox and annoying to my current self.

The idea is to "chop wood and carry water" and thereby to retain
the necessary balance in the energy system overall - do somethings
with your heart, some with your body, some with your mind and so
forth.

When one has an addiction to an overactive creativity meridian -
ah and it feels so good! - chopping wood and carrying water become
extremely unattractive indeed. One says NO to such activities and
longs for the space to do even more of the other stuff. Which
causes even more reversals in the already messed up systems which
need the wood chopping and water carrying to bring the totality
into balance.

The theory is that once a certain balance is achieved, one can do
a lot MORE creative stuff and without running the risk of going
mad in the process. Or getting sick, or both.

I'm having real trouble with disentangling what I know to be right
from old habits and turning the ship around by 180 degrees.

Which is proven by the fact that I am NOT walking under the
moonlight or cleaning my house RIGHT NOW but instead, I am typing
on my computer yet again.

The writing of How To's and housecleaning etc. has to be said,
YES! to in order to correct the reversals. Only THEN does my
totality have enough energy, correctly distributed, to allow that
heart-head combination to succeed.

Until that time, it has to be an either or choice because my
totality simply won't allow me to burn myself out totally and put
myself into a psych ward or a hospital (thanks for that, btw.
Sincerely!)

Which means or has meant in the past that I can either:

a) write how tos and moan about it, put my energy system into
reversals all over the place, whine and whinge about "mundane
tasks" and "routine boring stuff" and barely scratch a living;

or

b) go absolutely nuts, immerse myself totally in a creative
endeavour whilst my house, health, business, garden, pets and kids
fall into rack and ruin around me.

Clearly, either is not working at all as it should. So I shall
make a public committment to do something about this and make a
real effort to say YES to carrying wood and chopping water, best I
can for now with what I've got.

If the theory is correct, not only will the survival become taken
care of and easier than it ever did before (in muscle testing,
when you say NO, your muscles go weak. That makes the act of
lifting a teacup to wash it up if it is against your will at least
twice as hard, and the teacup at least twice as heavy than it
should have been!), but also allow for MORE creativity and there
should be time AND ENERGY for both.

At which point we are getting closer to that combination or
confluence of the two you were talking about and which I need so
badly.

And in this spirit, I'm gonna log off now and clean my stairs.
They are absolutely filthy.

Bye for now

SF

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Received on Fri Feb 07 2003 - 19:03:44 GMT