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Hello,
 
 
Recently, I read a book by David Icke, about how the way most of us
believe the world is run is wrong, and how a very small number of very
powerful family blood lines have manipulated events throughout history
in their continued pursuit of global domination.
 
It's a compelling thesis that I'm not convinced by but I'm glad to know
about.
 
I've always been interested in the possibility of unseen energy
directing our lives. Until I read about the governmental, political,
social 'conspiracy theory', it never really crossed my mind that a
similar 'conspiracy theory' probably exists for those who believe in the
existence of some form of energy body, against those who don't.
 
In the First World, the majority, I imagine, would go along with Richard
Dawkins, who proclaims there are 'no energy systems unknown to physics'.
I've spent long periods of my life silently nodding in agreement with
this man, who reads the Psalms out loud to himself to while away the
evenings, but has nothing but contempt for those who subscribe to the
existence of any sort of God. However, I've spent equally long periods
convinced Richard Dawkins has got it totally wrong.
 
My problem is, I've never knowingly experienced energy in myself. I
don't mean the sort of physical energy required to climb mountains or
push wheelbarrows or the mental energy behind thinking a problem
through, but the sort that is so scientifically immeasurable and
unquantifiable it is not unreasonable to claim it's non existent.
 
Finding out about Emotrance, checking out the website, joining this
email group, and now downloading and reading Oceans of Energy, are
simply the latest episodes in my occasional quest to discover if this
stuff is real or not. In the past, I've visited acupuncturists and gazed
in a mixture of awe and contempt at their meridian charts; I've had zero
balancing sessions based on these same meridians that left me feeling
confused as to whether I felt different or not. Ditto, my single Reiki
experience. I've studied the works of Robert Bruce and Robert Monroe and
have felt since I was a kid that if I could only learn to wake up in my
dreams or Astral Travel I could prove to myself my energetic existence
outside my physical body.
 
I enjoyed reading your book, Sylvia. Really, an immense pleasure. Some
classic insights in it. I particularly liked the suggestion that the
energy bodies mapped by the ancients on their population might bear
little resemblance to the energy bodies - or the energy body needs - of
1st world people today. And that phrase, "In the Hard" - I love it!
 
Before, I'd always worked on the assumption that the way we feel,
physically and emotionally, is the direct result of the way we think,
which is amenable to conscious control, but limited by character,
personality and habit. It's only recently crossed my mind that if we do
have underlying energy bodies, they - their state, their relative
coherence - may be the deciding factor in how character, personality and
habit patterns develop and change; and how, and why, we think, and feel,
the way we do.
 
I'm not sure how well this resonates with your belief that emotions are,
purely and simply, the energy body sounding a warning. Using one of your
examples, the hapless recipient of the, "You're fired", punch in the
stomach. The way I see this, the news of being fired generates a hundred
and one instantaneous thoughts - from how am I going to pay the
mortgage, what is my spouse going to say, what do I tell my kids, how
humiliating, etc, etc - which result in tightening muscles which bring
about the sick feeling of having been landed one in the solar plexus.
 
By attending to that sick feeling, which is the physical manifestation
of an energetic stuckness, and allowing it to spread and dissipate,
those tightened muscles will loosen, and then the pattern of thoughts
that caused the tightening in the first place will no longer have any
reason to be generated.
 
So it seems reasonable to me to speculate that our propensity to think
in calamitous, rapid fire spirals on receipt of an unpleasant stimulus
is because of some irregularity in our energy bodies that is already
present; and that if 'even flow' was the order of the day, we might find
'being fired' as much an opportunity as a disaster. Or, of course, with
'even flow' present, we might not be in the job in the first place, or
we might not be about to be sacked.
 
I have to admit to having difficulty finding strong feelings in my body
outside of times such strong feelings almost overwhelm me, when I am so
far out of myself that giving attention to them in an Emotrance fashion
is well beyond me. A couple of nights ago, my daughter was late back
from an evening out and worry was knawing at me. Locating where it was
knawing and going on from there was the logical approach; but,
realistically, I was far too worried to try. It would have felt like
dousing a fire with a pipette.
 
Approaching this from a 'pretend' angle the next day, where I tried to
put myself in the position I had been in the previous night, knowing my
daughter was home and well, I found I didn't feel anything like as
intense a 'knawing'. In fact, it was paltry by comparison, and any
softening in that area and allowing it to spread seemed like nothing
much.
 
Even when feelings are strong, but not attention grabbingly so, it isn't
necessarily plain sailing. Recently, I hung some paintings in an 'open
to all' session at a local gallery. I'm no trained artist, I can't draw
to save my life, but I like my pictures and have no qualms showing them
off to people visiting my home. The embarrassment I experienced actually
going to this gallery, though, hanging my 'pieces', and pricing them,
while all around me accomplished artists hung and priced theirs, was
excruciating. I wanted to curl up and die. I felt as out of place as I
would have done if I had gone into, and hung around in, a ladies public
toilet.
 
A couple of days later, my wife decided each picture should have a bit
of typed, explanatory blurb beneath it, so I cobbled something together
and we went along. Knowing I was going to find venturing into the
gallery difficult, where my amateurish, clip glass framed, highly
colored, bizarrely composed work sat surrounded by immaculately framed
landscapes in agreeable tones, I tried a bit of advance Emotrance work;
but I found I couldn't summon up any feelings stronger than a vague
restlessness.
 
Later, as I neared the gallery, my resistence grew, and by the time we
got there I had persuaded my wife that she should go in alone and pin up
the blurb while I sat in the car. Sitting there, I thought, here we are,
the perfect opportunity for Emotrance. I could feel a lead weight in my
stomach, much writhing and coiling. I looked at it, felt it, put my
hands over it, imagined pretend hands there, thought of it softening,
thought of it spreading; but nothing much seemed to happen.
 
Then, I became aware of a sort of gigantic perspex shield surrounding
me, like a huge dome. I couldn't pierce it, until I got out an imaginary
power drill and bored a hole. This seemed to allow pressure within to
escape, rather than any influx of energy. I continued drilling holes,
widening them, weighing up the writhing and coiling in my lead stomach,
thinking of softening, spreading, to not much avail; until, finally, my
mind drifted off.
 
This isn't meant negatively; but there have been a load of posts
itemising how it all seems so swimmingly easy to locate and soften the
strongest feeling, I do wonder if I'm alone in finding it not so
straightforward?
 
Ideally, what I wanted to happen was for the lead in my stomach to turn
to air, the writhing and coiling to spread to and activate my limbs, and
for me to have shot from the car and bounded into the gallery, laughing
and joking and becoming 'one of them'!
 
In reality, I know only too well that, as with all self help approaches,
the cardinal requirement is sufficient discipline to 'keep on track'. If
the attention wanders - and, presumably, there are powerful forces at
work, who don't desire change, who want the mind to wander - nothing
much gets done.
 
Aha. I've just rediscovered page 35!
 
"Speak your concerns out loud."
 
So far, I have signally failed to do this. Also on page 35
 
"Practice makes perfect".
 
I'll have another go, right now. Thanks again for a great book.
 
 
Nicholas
 
 
 

 
 
 
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