Re: [ET2] Energy Flares (was Blockage)

My take on what happened is that this energy had to be out of my system so I
could receive the energy attunement of the ancient Egyptian pharoic stuff -
and fixing my shattered circuits was taking way too long.
I guess my ka got dissected, those guys could do that, and this is the life I
get to repair it. Caesarian birth anchored that primal survival terror in my
tiny body, then my violent drunken father raped me both ends, starting when I
was only 2 yrs old. After that, things started to go downhill.
I can chuck in a school trauma here. When I was 7 I couldn't keep my family's
secret, and asked my "fatherly" white-haired headmaster for help. My mother
convinced him I was an imaginative child, she couldn't understand where I got
such ideas from. To my amazement, he believed her, so I got a real dressing
down. 3 years later I saw my chance for revenge, and tripped him up at the top of
the stairs - he fell and broke his arm. Hiding my demonic glee and keeping a
straight face probably created a few more tears in my energy body!
We had a mean spinster teacher who loved thrashing us with a 12" inch rule,
sometimes for no reason at all except her vibrator batteries had run out. When
she retired and they were making speeches about how great she was, this
offended me and I urged my fellow pupils to express what they really felt, we ended
up booing her en mass. I still have mixed feelings, she was in tears, ruined
her day.
Recently my dream-mind showed me a cut electric cable up in the attic, so I
asked it to fix all circuits and mend the plumbing while it was about it. I
suspect it's not that easy to do.
My belief now is that it's not the events that do the damage, it's the
beliefs and identifications we make that distort the present moment.
The challenge as I see it is to bring and express God here in our physical
bodies, at-one.
And, if you have been, thanks for listening, Tim

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Received on Wed 28 May 2003 - 06:00:02 BST