Emotional Weather

I was watching an episode of "Brat Camp" with my teenage son tonight.

For those who don't know what that is, it is a series of documentaries
about wayward teenagers being sent to Utah to haul logs in the
wilderness, for MONTHS on end, to "find themselves".

Personally, I think it's no better than an extreme and societally
supported form of brainwashing and nothing else, but that's a different
topic.

One girl there was clearly not just "naughty" or "spoiled"; there was
something seriously wrong with her (and I can't help but suspect a form
of vaccination damage, yet another topic, indeed).

She could not handle the situations, the people, herself and would time
and time again freak out completely (technical term); she wasn't
"learning her lessons", not after 6 WEEKS of forced marching and eating
cold baked beans from cans, with ENDLESS, and I mean ENDLESS,
brainwashing pressure from half a dozen adults and the peer pressure
from the other victims of these procedures.

Watching her being mishandled by the so called professional staff there
got so bad that I burst out into tears, I felt so sorry for her.

Somewhat later in the harrowing one hour long programme I made the
comment I wished to God those poor *****s had at least EFT to help them
out, but what they really needed was EmoTrance, and it wouldn't be
taking MONTHS of endless suffering and failure in the middle of nowhere
in Utah.

"Ha!" said young son, and here we now finally come to the point of this
message, "Ha! How can you sit there and say that! Why, less than ten
minutes ago, you were a snivelling mess over that girl! You haven't got
your emotions under control at all!"

I was somewhat taken aback by this, but then I got it, and I was delighted.

Do I have my emotions "under control" as a result of EmoTrance?

Damn right I haven't!

It isn't about "controlling" your emotions, and it never was.

When I see something as distressing as this poor girl being mistreated
in public, underlaid with happy, "She's getting what she's deserving!"
commentary, I hope TO HELL that the day will NEVER come and I DON'T have
a major emotional response to such a situation.

But the huge difference between me (EmoTrance enabled person) and the
people on Brat Camp is that I snap out of it after MINUTES.

That's also the major difference between me now, as opposed to me how I
used to be - I used to be depressed for WEEKS, sometimes MONTHS on end,
and it would never lift. I used to be angry for DAYS following a single
incident, much like those kids on Brat Camp.

Now, I still can get as extremely angry - but it is OVER within minutes,
if that.

I have learned to have these emotions come and have them GO AWAY again,
once they've made their point.

As a result, I'm not scared of my own emotional responses anymore, and I
don't mind bursting out into tears at an injustice or a sad occurrence.
I don't even mind screaming abuse at my computer when I've deleted a
whole document, days of work, with a single key stroke.

I don't mind because I GET OVER IT - every time, and within minutes, and
that's in severe cases, usually it's seconds.

That's what I call "emotional weather".

There isn't a problem with weather as long as you don't get too much of
a single kind - be it hot sunny, or cold damp, or rainy, or dark - if it
all blows along and changes, it works, and plants grow, the ecology
works, and everyone's happy overall.

These girls on Brat Camp live in a different place, where they get stuck
in one predominant emotional state, and then they stay in it - even if
it is totally counterproductive to the environment they're in, even if
they try their damndest to get out of it, even if they try their hearts
out to not even enter there, but they have no control.

And the fear and stress of even experiencing any of these emotions,
because they know they'll get stuck inside of them again, gets ever
greater along the way.

Then we're stuck in everlasting fear, and what can that be any better
than everlasting frost?

That's what EmoTrance does - it re-establishes the movement of
"emotional weather" and when that happens, we don't need to be afraid
any more, because no matter what, it'll change again soon enough.

If that sounds all to difficult and way too advanced, I wish to God that
SOMEONE handed those Brat Camp people an EFT protocol, to help these
poor kids get some MOVEMENT on their stuck emotional states, and some of
those have been stuck since early childhood, and those poor buggers
can't get out, not for all the whippings, guilt, and physical
deprivation that's being thrown at them.

In the meantime, I'm grateful that I can be as sad, as happy and as
angry as I want to be, without fear, without trying to hold on to some
illusionary state of "emotional control" with a terrified white knuckled
grip, and get to respond to my environment appropriately.

With laughter, AND with tears!

Bright fresh winds to all, indeed,

Silvia

Silvia Hartmann
http://StarFields.org/diary/

           
Received on Wed Feb 22 2006 - 23:16:05 GMT