[ET2] Space and Housing Issue (was Intro & Prosperity)

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> >> I think I'll have to do ET on that. I can imagine
> > myself visiting a
> > new house, run my hands around and do ET and then go
> > back to my small
> > appartment with other people to split the cost.
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> > I'm kidding by the way! ;)
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>Yeah actually, you shouldn't be. Do it for real and experience
>what happens. Heard of the good old adage, "Wherever you go, there
>you are?" It's true!
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>Indeed, I do believe I am one of a pair of veritable EXPERTS on
>the topic of houses and whether or not they contribute to your
>quest for enlightenment - LOL.
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>Perhaps the other in the pair would like to make some comments on
>the topic! <nudge nudge, wink wink!>

LOL! I believe that would be me then, so here goes.

I have always had this thing with needing space, physical space, emotional
space, you name the space, I have needed it.

I have recently moved from a *spacious* (5 bedroomed!)really lovely house,
with wonderful old fireplaces, high ceilings, beautiful staircase (oops
there I go again) into a tiny, and I mean tiny, one bedroomed flat with a
new partner. All my possessions are in 10 boxes in the tiny hall to which I
have no access because they are all too big and heavy to get into.

Horror of horrors, I do not have my things accessible and around me, I do
not have any space of my own so I cannot just take off to meditate, be on
my own, scream at the top of my voice or any of those little things it
would be good to be on your own to do. Also the flat is in a *soulless*
block (I am an environmental energy consultant among other things for god's
sake, do you want death by geopathic stress woman?) although it is in a
great town so this kind of makes up for that.

But, as my friend, and colleague, will testify I have not stopped moaning
about this since I moved in, in fact I publicly apologise for this and all
the suffering I have caused you as a result.

I had been wrestling with the usual, it's necessary to let go in order to
be able to get what you want, principle, but all the while deep down
knowing I WANT TO MOVE, I CANNOT BE HAPPY HERE, I CANNOT REACH
ENLIGHTENMENT HERE, I NEED TO GET OUT, NOW.

I EFT'd the panic, I ET'd the feelings of claustrophobia and wanting, but
still I moaned.

Until I realised it was my construct that needed the space, my construct
determined that to be happy, successful, able to work I needed beautiful
surroundings, a *spiritual space*. On top of all that there was the
construct's feeling of absolute failure that I was back where I started 30
odd years ago in a pokey flat, starting from scratch again, had my life
meant nothing so far? didn't I deserve better?

And as soon as I realised this was the construct it all fell away and I
honestly do not care if I never move from that place and I am honestly not
saying this in the hope that now having realised this things will change.

So there we have it in a rather large nutshell.

I hold my hand up and admit it, I am happy, I am happy to be ME, I am happy
to be me wherever I goddam find myself because I am a jewel and there's no
one else quite like me and will not ever be again.

:-)

Nicola

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Received on Thu Jun 05 2003 - 16:18:11 BST